SOooooooooooooooooooo SOoooooo Tired.

Damn, what's a girl got to do to get some sleep, people? I didn't sleep well last night because my throat was hurting so badly. I was coughing up lung biscuits all night = yummy. The night before, some dumb-ass dog was barking up a storm. I think it must belong to our neighbors. The dirty ones.

Anyway, I'm still doing this whole training thing and sleep is MOST IMPORTANT. I can barely keep my eyes open right now - which is not a good thing because I'm working. Or I'm at work, blogging. There must be something crazy in the air because my allergies are kicked up into high gear. I took the normal Flonase this morning, had to follow up with some Claritin right before lunch because my ears were itching so bad. Not to mention my eyes were burning and nose was running. I thought it could be from sitting in the hot tub at the gym last night (the chemicals were making my eyes water). The itchy head makes me think otherwise....

So this month is going to be the most intense month of training. I've got to make sure I don't miss any workouts and I don't cut any of them short. We've got one month of hard core training as we approach our peak weekend (Memorial Day). This is going to be the true test! This weekend we're doing an OWS then we'll do a long brick Saturday morning (80+ then run 45 minutes) followed by a 15 miler on Sunday. WOO HOO!! Mama's going to be T-I-R-E-D after all that.

I hope we can find a babysitter for the weekend. I'd like for Brian to be able to workout with us / coach us. Plus, I think he needs to get out of the house! He's been so incredible these last few months. He not only has been a great coach, but an amazing father and husband. Just this morning he left me the sweetest message on my mobile phone telling me how proud he was that I was getting up super early to go do my workouts, then take all my crap to the gym to get ready for work... then come home and be a mom. It really helps to hear him say that. Sometimes I think that I'm just out here doing this crazy training and nobody understands how tough it is with a baby. BUT, he understands. He is going through his own difficult time right now. I know it's hard for him to sit back while I'm training. Not just sit back, but watch our son while I'm gone too. I knew he'd be a great father, but I had no idea just how great. I'm so lucky to have him as a husband, coach and best friend.

There probably aren't a lot of husbands that would do what he's doing. Just last weekend during a training ride, a friend was talking about how he gets the feeling from his wife that "he's leaving again??" - where my situation at home is completely different. Brian is like "hey babe, you gonna go do that workout today?". He knows what it takes to train for this kind of event... I do have feelings of guilt for leaving Brian at home w/ the baby... but since he knows what it takes, he doesn't complain at all. I'm very glad that I don't have to deal with a spouse giving me grief for being gone all those hours on the weekend riding my bike.

It's these things that I really need to remind myself of - how lucky I am to have a loving husband and child. How fortunate I am to be physically capable of running and riding my bike... I need to look at this way more than looking at my speed / my time... I just bought and started reading the Triathlete's Guide to Mental Training. If anything keeps me from succeeding, it's my own mind. I hope I can put some of the content to good use, and I hope that I can read it all before the big race.